lil tods

Sherlita Almeyra

She’s a good conversationalist and eats A LOT (trust me on this). Extremely vain as well and always hyper (run here and jump there)… Quite demanding at times, always wants to be right.

Sherrian Aleilhan

He will seduce you with his charming smiles. Able to speak simple words and phrases…. enjoys talking to himself and humming to the music… Cries so ever the sadly if he is forced to shower or if we refuse to give him more yummy baby biscuits (all drama and bedek!).

So how will the youngest one look like?

Hmm…

Sherianty Alemeily

Since the mum had all three through caesarian, right after the third was born, she had ligation.

expiry

Creepy and freaky individuals when come together, are able to either traumatize or become strong pillars of support for the other.

Ok, that is mean… the part where I said they are creepy and freaky.

See, we can all be happy if we want to. We can all forgive and forget if we try hard enough to. After all blood runs thicker than water. Family bonds are forever. Are they really?

I am so sick of hearing about those. Ah, the bitterness of being betrayed by someone you thought you could rely upon.

Yes, I do have issues.

So here comes my theory – every relationship has an expiry date. I am hesitant to apply it to family members because the networks tend to be stronger… so let’s be more specific, every friendship has an expiry date.

Posted it as a Facebook nickname and some interesting points to ponder upon:

- My “friends have an expiry date” THEORY. it may sound crude but i do not believe in the notion of friends forever. certain people are closer to you during certain periods and as easily, they will fade away from you when the time comes for them to. so treasure the “limited” moments you have with each other, because the expiry date may come soon and you may be helpless about it.

- I don’t believe in the expiry date theory. If they can fade away, then they were never friends to begin with – they were just acquaintances.
Acquaintances come and go in your life. Situations bring you together, you add them in FB, and then when things change, they’ll just be another icon in your ‘friends’ page.

Real friends are always ‘there’, no matter whether time and circumstance puts a gulf in between. You may have no time to meet, lose touch, have different life paths, or the various other disturbances that cn break a relationship – but all you have to do is to reach out, and you’ll be surprised at how the relationship is still as stable as ever.

- Somehow (due to modernization?) it is supposed to get easier to maintain relationships (technology and transportation better sort) but the relationships have the tendency to be like hi and bye… not very deep… or we are just taking for granted that “since you are in my msn or Facebook”, you are my “friend” and i do not necessarily need to talk to you.

Another point is that – we tend to meet different sort of people in different phases of our lives. its not really easy to maintain too many relationships… so i suppose we DO prioritize those who can “benefit” or help us function better in our lives. and we will try to avoid those that pull us back.

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Touche.

I DO love my family members and friends. They are odd and quirky, but great individuals nevertheless. Always there for me most of the time. Always offering a kind word and never ceasing with encouragement. I am glad I have them.

We will constantly change the structure of our “support network” (family, friends and acquaintances).

For me, I am quite apprehensive to have this “in-law” extended into mine.

Ah damn those Korean dramas that portray evil mother-in-laws! – They expect you to be the best for their sons, yet at the same time they will always think you are never good enough for their sons.

So you have to be mindful of your manners and behaviors. Incessantly panic over one negative comment. (I am already hating this role despite not even starting it! But what choice do I have?)

In other words, you become a totally different person – a decent and boring one at that. Never show your wilder side, do not take the risks… oh wait, you are supposed to be plain and normal AND at the same time, interesting and unique.

Crazy one this one. Schizo.

Ah the need to be liked and accepted. Why is it so important?

Cross fingers and hope for miracles :X

Ok fine, kind mother-in-laws DO exist.

Hmm maybe I have such an informal and outrageously (improper) communication standards with my own family members… that I find others to be too rigid and proper (conforming?). That suffocates me!

Let me define what is improper with an example – with your own family you can run around from one end of the room to the other, with just a towel draped around you. You could at the same time, be singing loudly at the top of your voice. Then you squeeze and tickle your little niece and nephew. That is proceeded by you suddenly pretending to be a monster and start chasing after them. Yes, still with only a towel draped around you.

For now, I just feel so out of place. I want to be myself but somehow I know I can’t.

talent or trickster?

 

A person I knew S, was two timing F & N for the past 2-3 years. When he was out with F, he would insist that he and N were over, when in truth, he still was dating N and seeing her every day. Similar story in reversed way was told to N about F. So these two rather silly and naïve girls hated the other to their guts. He was so suave in his lies and would treat them like princesses. They were insanely in love with him and placed him high on a pedestal – him to lord over their emotions and trust.

So Fate decided to overturn his enormous table of lies. N frustrated by certain comments received in his Facebook, decided to get things straight with F. The girls met and realized how deep a shit hole of lies they were in and plotted a way to confront S – yes, it involved hitting, thrashing his room and electrocuting his laptop to death – ah, he was screwed. Yet all the way to the end, he did not really show any signs of remorse and was still trying to convince each girl that the other was lying.

Ah did I tell you, he has an “ex-girlfriend” box, evidences of his conquests.

That is the story in a nutshell… a feedback from Ehsan that lead me to this entry:

I would never cheat on you, love you too much. But I wonder; S was not having sex with either girl. So why cheat on them and risk being found out? Is he just starved for emotional attention? Because that was all he got. In retrospect, his way of ‘cheating’ is how many girls do it; with the mind and not the body.

In a small way Ehsan is wrong because he assumes males desire for sexual benefits rather than emotional attachment. I feel that, males equally feel inadequate and insecure – making it worse, society has always demand males to show a tough and resilient exterior – no signs of “weak” emotions allowed.

However, I feel Ehsan rightly pointed S’s bizarre symptoms that may unravel plenty of underlying problems.

In my conversations with S, I figured that he has too many brothers that outshone him and his relationship with his parents were not close, perhaps even, they did not spend as much one to one time to nurture and understand him. I have a feeling that his parents may be the traditional, patriarchal typified family, widening the gulf. He told me that he was brought up by his female cousins.

I suppose he yearned for constant emotional attachment, specifically from females – as I figured he would have issues with being close to males – he is unable to compete with the egos of all the other males in his family. Hence, he clung on to N & F like a blood sucking leech – even if it meant lying to them all the time.

I also figured that, since he still has ANOTHER girlfriend, apart from N & F – this is a long distance relationship – she may actually be his first love. Perhaps she cheated on him before or that she requested for an open relationship where they both could freely date others or similar to him, she prefers casual dating as compared to being committed to just one. I feel that he does not really want an open relationship, but perhaps his ego or his claim to be very open-minded made him agree to it. Therefore, I am assuming that during their conversations (when they meet up), they would share stories of their conquests – he has to create relationships to prove to her that he is as “capable” in that area.

I have never seen anyone who has lied AND able to get away with it so many times and take those he claimed to care about, for granted. In truth, the only person he actually loves is himself. All his ex-girlfriends were just accessories to glorify himself – his conquests. The thrill of being liked, at the expense of forming any real relationships with others – I pity him.

Interestingly, I did have a hunch that S could not be trusted and I told him that. I do admit that for a while i was awed and interested by him, his fun, mysterious and “charming” ways. He is like a magician, able to delude you with his tricks and gain the admiration of many. However over time, his conversations became rehearsed and full of merry go rounds, incomprehensible – he is able to weave out the truth and weave in versions that sound like the truth.

A talent. A trickster.

Ehsan also told me that, the girls themselves deserved to be led by. Like an abusive relationship, both parties need to be willing to put themselves in the predicament. They were warned by others yet still proceeded to let him have a hold over them.

I am just glad that my first love is a true one and hope it would always be

choices

Do we chase lofty dreams every day?

Or maybe since those are our dreams, then we somehow try to find some superior meanings in them.

I was talking to a friend the other day – on choices. She believes it is up to us to make the choices in our lives, and along with each choice comes pros and cons. Pros being, we chose it because we believe it could benefit us in certain ways. Cons, the negative consequences or baggage that comes with it – you cannot have all things perfect all the time. Some sacrifices are needed, I suppose.

However, I feel that, these “choices” are actually in pretence – to enable us to have a sense of autonomy and independence. In actual, we really do not have that much of a choice, our choices are on a limited platform. Society make us believe that some options in each of our choices are more justified than others, to exist and be there in making our logical judgments on them. How we “logically” select our choices and put value in each of them, are constructed by our culture and upbringing as well.

There are these “other and fearful” choices that we either dare not think about or do not exist at all in our “vocabulary” system. We do not know of their existence or may be made to feel afraid to think too much on them – “it can never happen” mentality.

It seems that a (Influential? Famous? Powerful?) small proportion of the population may have more varied and exotic options on their plates… more so than others. For instance, the choices given to Paris Hilton will be far more exclusive than what an average Joe may have. If you look back, you will realize she has the money and status – the privilege to enjoy those exclusive options.

Does having more options then, reflects the amount of power you have?

Perhaps.

the perfect male

the perfect male is horny yet sensitive?

ah, how precise

it seems that the decent and good-looking ones are always taken. leaving the semi-perfect ones (average looking, a certain degree of charisma and most of all, those who are able to manipulate others subtly) to “lord” over others. no matter how much of a jerk they are, they have a string of hopelessly in love Juliets, yearning after them.

the perfect male:

(1) does not emit any foul smelling gas from his orifices in front of you, whether intentional or not.

(2) puts you first in all matters, even his career, friends, hobbies and own family.

(3) is gentlemanly – i.e.: opens doors for you, when he sees you struggling with your food, cuts them into smaller bites, without you needing to tell him to.

(4) always asks for your opinion and listens to you wisely. however, he needs to have his own point of view… but that does not mean he has to dismiss yours.

(5) never makes you cry… okay this is too extreme… does commit mistakes, realizes them, apologizes sincerely and NEVER repeats the same mistakes.

(6) to a certain extent, thinks like a girl (and their difficulties) especially when they go shopping and pick out movies and places for dates. i.e.: an absolute no-no if the girl likes/wants to wear high heels and he asks her to go hiking.

(7) never cheats or intentionally makes her feel insecure.

(8) is romantic, adventurous and full of sweet surprises.

(9) knows how to do the household chores. at least the basic ones like mopping the floor, dusting and folding clothes.

(10) showers, puts on nice perfume and dresses himself well for you.

Or maybe are some women just too fussy, prudish and overbearing?

ah, there are always alternatives

and ANOTHER alternative:

My perfect male snuggles with me every night wearing only what God gave him, doesn’t pee on the toilet seat, is loyal to a fault, loves me even when I am stinky, stays in bed with me and has spent the past week kissing all my tears away, brings me special gifts and sometimes more than one in a day, he protects me from my enemies and some of my friends lol, he brings me the newspaper every morning, he is quite frisky chasing me around as we get our exercise, and he is just happy snuggling on the couch watching a movie with me.

I bet you thought I was writing about my man. Well I am, my furry one, as the Prince loves me through all life’s sorrows. He loved to hear another male voice on the other end of the speaker phone and would wiggle his little tail and snuggle up extra close to me when he would hear that special ringtone. I think he knew that it made me very happy to spend time talking to my other “almost perfect male” and therefore it made the Prince happy to give me to him.